A crushed heart

[Verse 1] My… My whole world deep inside Was shaken… My peace has all gone, and the lines have all dried For this world, there was once a clear guide But for now… All the vanes, by the winds were untied [Verse 2] I have suffered before… I have felt all the stings of the pain But you… With the things that YOU did… Even alcohol helps me in vain Pain… All this pain… With a crushed heart I’m trying to cope Tar… All this tar… I can’t wash it away from my soul… And no hope [Verse 3] All… All my joys and the dreams that I used to believe I… I dissolved them in you, but you didn't care to perceive All… All the soul’s hidden store Burned in seconds… And died out for evermore [Verse 4] I… All the secret ways out, all the ports, I have burned them to ground BUT… I could never imagine that such a deep grief could be found I… I was ready to blind my own eyes and was ready to spare But… But I wasn't prepared. To be hating and seeking despair [Verse 5] Wait… On the threshold there stands a cold shadow, so silent and gray Fight… I have lost my own self on this cursed and terrible day You… You have left, not a drop of the warmth did you leave in the hall And… Only ashes remain where the hope used to bloom for us all [Verse 6] Let… Let the silence become my own altar, my faithful new friend Gloom… In this abyss together we’ll burn and we’ll reach to the end No… There are no more ports, no more ways, and no keys to be found Light… I extinguished it all, I am no one, to no one I’m bound [Verse 7] I… With a crushed heart and gasping for air, I’m no lord of my soul But… If I don't open up this last door. I will stay in control